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This entry is your fault, GeoCities.

November 11, 2000, Saturday morning

Last night, I was chatting with a friend. He told me, "I wish I were an animé character. Animés always end with a happy ending." "Yeah," I replied. "And it stops right there."

Geocities is closing. I've already gone to retrieve all important files (i.e., journal entries) and left the not-so-important ones (i.e., those I'm too embarrassed to keep, but are probably still sitting around, namely fanfictions of old). I had to keep my eyes half closed to avoid the cheesy layout. I also had to turn off the MIDI file in every damn webpage. It truly was an embarrassing trip down memory lane.

I did love that old webpage, though. I started learning about HTML in third year high school, and since then, I spent one too many hours on the Internet via our dial-up connection. I designed my own website(s), wrote and posted my cheesy and/or angst-ridden stories for all the world to see. For a high school student to realize that you can connect to the world with one touch of the computer keyboard, and to know that those people out there appreciate what you've created -- that's priceless.

I paid for the Internet with my meager savings, and I remember when my bill went up to P5000. I wasn't able to pay for it until we got a letter from Pacific Internet with a veiled threat of taking the matter to court unless action is taken. My mom paid for it. Again, one embarrassing moment. Now I know better; Pacific Internet wouldn't have won that sort of lawsuit. Why trust a high school student to pay her bills and keep her dial-up hours to a minimum, anyway?

This trip down memory lane would've been simply cute if I didn't remember that surge of creativity (and not necessarily talent) which I had in high school. Maybe it's because the Internet was a novelty for me; maybe it's because I was in high school and I didn't care if my writings were bad as long as people read them. I've been missing that. I miss it when I see it in a few of my students. I miss it when I read beautiful poetry in my MA class and remember the times when I thought that I could also  write someday. I've been wanting to feel this great espresso shot of creativity and have the time and motivation to just create. And now what I create are mostly Twitter entries (but I thoroughly love Twitter).

Funny how an old website could dredge out this much bitterness. hehe.


( 5 comments — Leave a comment )
Oct. 27th, 2009 01:26 am (UTC)
I will miss Geocities lots and lots. It was my very first "home" in the internet, and it's always hard to leave home.
Oct. 28th, 2009 03:52 am (UTC)
i'm gonna follow you on twitter! :)
Nov. 18th, 2009 12:48 am (UTC)
i sometimes feel like i can't write anything anymore. well, i really don't tweet much, but my entries are mainly nothing interesting. just angst. well, the things i wrote then were ALSO angst, but they were creative angst. hhaha
Nov. 24th, 2009 03:57 am (UTC)
Apr. 12th, 2011 06:55 pm (UTC)
Can't wait to get involved
Hi - I am definitely happy to discove this. great job!
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